POEM A DAY 2024
Friday, February 2, 2024
The Way We Were
Thursday, February 1, 2024
the war on tunnels
why tunnels?
ask the mishna talmud and zohar
as they snake beneath the aching intellect
of a learning complex
why let tzitzis fly in a subterranean draft
dangling yiddish and russian assimilations
are cell phones permitted below ground
who lights gas lights on shabbas
what does the halacha say about crockpots
or the safe holding temperature
when tunnels are for passing through unseen
death birth consumption regurgitation
singing is it alive? our compassion for tunnels
whether they hold hostage
the imaginations or concrete pains
i have to imagine that beneath the earth
is a house of learning where all tunnels lead
and the sojourners bear their true or false
righteousness like bruises from a fight with gravity
Autobiography
In another January
Before smartphones, after Facebook
The kindness of acquaintance proves to be
The key to our survival
Sitting in the stairwell
Drinking cheap wine
Slicing cheese with whatever
We can find in a handbag
Perfume samples
Debit cards
The obvious tools conspicuously absent
Abby Polgardy newly arrived in Paris
Treated to a soirée of bohemian proportions
I'd love to have you in but
My old lover stole my new keys
O, the melodrama
And the steady flow of high fashion
Passing on the landing
Glancing at the fortress of luggage
Holding me back from falling-in
It felt so important to be ok
Insouciant in the unknowing
And we weren't dressed to join the crowd
Gathering at my new next door
But we were in no position to refuse
Champagne and caviar
Luc returning from a Russian assignment
Allowing me to stash my baggage
While I searched for friends of friends of friends
Who expected nothing in return for couchspace
Dryish Jan
#16, 17, 18, 19 & 20January’s Journey: Father and Son Returns Adding parts of Missouri, Tennessee, Alabama, Florida and Terminal Sections 5, 7, 9, 10, and 11
#16, 17, 18, 19 & 20January’s Journey: Father and Son Returns Adding parts of Missouri, Tennessee, Alabama, Florida and Terminal Sections 5, 7, 9, 10, and 11
Perspective Prelude
In 2020, when Covid-19 began to leach
Sanity and courage,
And science failed to reach,
The fearful and discouraged,
Son’s remote learning and online sessions
Led to lassitude and many missed lessons.
Mom and he, and a million others in stampede,
That prophecies propelled at frightful speed
To southern reaches, and open schooling,
Warmer beaches and again more carpooling.
The Age of Enlightenment was left behind, and rationality into the dustbin was consigned,
True seekers of truth preferred any kind of conspiracy that through divination only they could find.
The Founding Fathers succored on the Age of Reason
Would not recognize their heirs’ mad season.
This Father and his heir, and Son
Will now down this country run.
A confluence of withheld reasons
Compels a journey in this wintry season.
The time is now, whilst in Father’s company,
For Son to become prologue to their mutual destiny.
While the Age of Sturm und Drang compels an ending tragic,
Father seeks an epilogue to make their meandering epic.
For now, auf Wiedersehen!
That is, until they meet again,
And happily, they see,
That each is in the other’s
Private history.
1. Fraternal Farewell
Whoops! Son says he failed to say one tire has a nail.
Sister stops Dad’s caterwauling, calling to wish the travelers well,
But now there is more work to do before the starting bell.
Sons’ pick-up has waited patiently under a snowy tomb,
So Brother breaks it free from that frozen womb.
While Son collects his clothes and stacks them in the back
Dad unneeded stands stoically and slack
‘Til coaching Son on how to pack
The bulky blue pick-up.
Suddenly the moment for brotherly goodbyes
The fond fraternal hug, a sad hiccup,
Squeezes a few tears from Father’s faltering eyes.
The little boys’ binkies, bottles and blankets and bloated dirty diapers.
Make way for ice scrapers, glacier blue deicer and working windshield wipers.
Citrus from the sunny places, protein bars low fat, bagged with bananas in a bunch,
Are now the healthier alternatives replacing the Father’s former student lunch.
2. Perpetual Preparation
3. Duo’s Departure: Son to Sun
The youngest son to his sunny home at last returning,
Along America’s interstates he and father will soon be journeying.
Alert! Winter storm Indigo is bearing down,
Hurry the final prep, they must leave town.
But the interstates are not for them alone,
Other taxpayers will also be hurrying home.
Forsooth! Before they are barely rolling
The queues of cars begin slowing.
Like ice floes choking a river swollen
First responders surround a driver stricken.
Down in mangled steel, reflecting lights yellow white and red,
Freezing the faces of those gawking for the dead.
As if creeping past an open casket, thoughtful glances are exchanged,
At the scene yellow tape, and orange cones, are mournfully arranged.
The surface tension is finally breached,
As the macabre point is reached
Where they gazed.
And four lanes finally lose their unease,
Vaulting to the velocity they please
Those mesmerized are now unfazed.
Son’s proud pick up in procession, defies death with its combustion,
Consumes petrol for growing power,
Climbs from ten to twenty, forty, fifty, sixty then to seventy miles per hour.
Farewell!
4. Indulging in Illinois
5. “Meet Me in” Missouri
Missouri Welcomes You! To boom land.
Epicenter to the New Madrid Earthquake.
Father turns to Son and says, “You know,
That earthquake tolled bells as far away as Chicago.”
“Dad, look!” Lying in the median is a jack-knifed cola truck.
The tractor trailer’s fall traced through the snowy muck.
The broken hulk no wreck from the earthquake long ago,
No, a victim of last night’s mismanagement in the ice and snow.
Floundered cars and trucks sprinkle the interstate’s sunken median,
Forlorn as if discarded during the quake of eighteen hundred and eleven.
Fresh semi’s fill the ranks undaunted, stolidly passed the fallen they roll.
Flashier trucks pull heated trailers full of stomping equine souls.
With morning energy cars mingle, their drivers not yet bored.
Still striving for greater glory, blazing passed an epic billboard,
That admonishes these chasers for the real earth quaker, “Seek God.”
Motoring inside their mobile heaven on earth, Dad and Son plod on
Until Father and Son a vision see, of a Missouri paradise approaching.
Showing secular Hallelujahs and Fourth of July Amens exploding
Emblazoned with the promise in earth shaking words: “Exit Here for Boomland!”
“Fireworks!” Together they consider what detour their timetable can withstand.
Should they take the offramp? What is to be done?
When someone offers to blow you into Kingdom come?
6. Awed in Arkansas
Father says, “Look, a town called Osceola.”
Far from the old Seminoles, who used to live in Florida.
Chief Osceola frustrated President Andrew Jackson
That “Ole Hickory” who beat the British and their General Pakenham.
Under Osceola the Seminoles roamed free and loose
Until “the Little Magician” Martin Van Buren duped him with a flag of truce.
If Son’s new state be marred by that sad Indian incident,
Then what state in a moral union is not also tainted and complicit?
Father sits up! “Look at that! Son, go slow!
No geographic accident gave this next town the name Lepanto.”
Arkansans must know their religious history.
They named the town Lepanto after a famous Christian victory,
When the galleys of the Holy League in 1571,
Decisively defeated that naughty navy of the Ottomans.
Thus, setting the Mediterranean free
For more holy commerce and Christianity
That paid for Wars of Reformation in the 17th Century.
And timely reformation Arkansans do not postpone,
“War, Divorce, Wealth – what would Jesus say?” A billboard helpfully intones.
Dad says, “That’s a good question.” Son ignores the open invitation.
As Father fumbles for an answer to the twelve-foot inquisition,
Son plays familiar music to ease the thorny theological imposition.
Son selects soothing songs from Dad’s own century,
That Father may mediate more sleepily
Upon this rude Arkansan inquiry.
7. Ptolemaic in Memphis, Tennessee?
While wending back across the Mississippi River
Into Memphis, Tennessee,
Son points out, “Dad see!
It’s the largest Bass Pro Shop in the world!”
Dad jerks his head from the foamy river far below, stares into the swirl
Of whipping flakes and slashing sleet, and intermittent visibility
Between flashing bridge girders bearing them over the gray Mississippi.
Squinting Dad asks, “Where’s the largest Bass Pro Shop?”
Son says, “Under the pyramid, which sits atop the Shop.”
The pyramid camouflaged by snow and white as bleached bone
Emerges from Memphis shining brighter than the limestone
That covered the haggard, dust storm blown,
Mummy homes in the movies we are shown
Here in America.
Father says, “It’s just a giant tent.” No Hebrew lives were spent
To sit it atop this Bass Pro Shop.
So why shouldn’t Memphis, Tennessee have its own pyramid?
When this Commercial Wonder is not a sop to a single pharaoh’s id.
Memphis is as quiet as the Valley of the Kings
Snow piles up like sand entombing everything,
As frustrated as grave robbers, the metropolis gives up the ghost
On plowing, except for arteries they need the most.
Power reduces streetlights to stop and go red blinks
Father and Son slip out of town as quietly as the Sphinx.
8. Muddling and Muttering while Motoring through Mississippi
9. Alabama “Is Just Alright with Me”
Son says, “Hey dad you’ll like this.” He smiles too easily.
Dad sees the traitorous flag flying in the winter breeze.
An Alabama landowner flies the old Confederate banner
A 20 by 15-foot cloth flapping in a most defiant manner.
Who can blame this new traitor of 2024?
When Sherman’s Army of the Tennessee in 1864
And his Midwestern soldiers skipped past Montgomery
The proud first capitol of the late Confederacy.
And denied Alabama of its chance to show its bravery.
The South’s persistent State’s rights platitudes,
Chanted in support of involuntary servitude,
Exasperated Sherman’s Midwesterners.
Sop his sixty thousand angry bummers
Scoured a swath through plantations from Atlanta to the sea
Wider than any interstate.
Alabamans watched in horror as the Union Army
Administered the coup d’ grace to Southern slavery.
And so if a white person can fly the Rebel flag on his private property
Can a black person drive by it alone in lanes reserved for high occupancy?
10. Finally, Florida
Florida! Where Covid Carpetbaggers vent their spleens,
Over Blue State mandatory mRNA vaccines.
And in the sunshine of that State
Expostulate on the merits of Gulf Coast real estate.
While pious in their pews, worshipping the cable news,
Commiserating over border views
Of migrants struggling with little left to lose.
Before basted in boredom they return
Sullenly to the states they spitefully did spurn.
First, they flip those Florida titles to turn,
A tidy profit on their tedious three-year sojourn.
Begun so fervently, and in mimicry,
Of their fabled forebears’ mythic pursuit of precious Liberty.
Maneuvering their overloaded SUVs,
Among their fellow American refugees.
These pioneers piloted confidently, those modern Conestoga wagons,
Until primly bedding them beneath their comfy mini mansions.
Swaggering shelters propped-up and aloof,
“Fear not,” the brokers boast, “They’re hurricane proof.”
11. Terminal Time: Return of the Father
As Father waits, he watches the wayfarers pass through,
Each is seeking solar solace until their time is due.
Father wonders - would he too?
Or what would the thirsty Spanish explorer Ponce de Leon do,
Or think of an average American senior citizen,
Who retires only to expire, conquered by the scorching Florida sun,
When that conquistador himself sought salvation from God’s furtive fountain?
see you next year < 3
I return the way I left
Heavy booted
Swishing a whole body of rain bibs
Thigh to thigh and heel toe to be quiet
I am slink stepping the hallway and thinking about whether
I’ve lost the chance to seasonally savor
Citrus and whether it’s possible to
Be an adult body with no sexual baggage
What if I died and was reborn in this body
Fully grown but entirely unfamiliar
And with no memory of how it grew and who touched it
I would discover so
Much
More than I hide from now and I would use the everyday and the natural
And I would perform it and keep it quiet and leverage it
Only for gut instinct North Star ocean wave
Loudest tip toe whisper shout
Sleeping sisters with doors cracked open
I’m home from getting turned on at the movie theater
And waking the house with my clattering secrets
I wide arm crouch into the bedroom
Toss off boot and rain suit
Set up the projector and blast a home video
Of myself at 23 packing to move out forever from
The house I grew up in
My best friend is with me and directing the sorting
What comes with me to the island
What stays in storage
What goes forever away
The material is gatorade bottles I filled with rum
And hid next to baggies of yellow dusty weed
Letters from high school plot points
Something sexy and embarrassing and my baby blanket
And my first CDs Shakira Bob Marley Kelly Clarkson Eminem
I played with dolls here and made them kiss
I had terrible sex here
I am sweating with the effort of getting it
Out
The woman I’ve woken offers me ice cream
And crispy cake almost cotton candy angel
I have to brush my teeth twice
Before haze lifts and shows me
I am somehow here now
Seattle, January 31, 2024
Wednesday, January 31, 2024
now we are thirty six
some red eyed dad sat in white undies
at the breakfast table
black curls assumed his mullet
coffee stained teeth remembered cigarettes
my ears remember his kisses ringing
how he tousled my hair
put on a lake minnehaha souvenir tee
and read local news
i still hear the voices of piglet and pooh and roo
or when ducks spoke through the side of his cheek
for hans christian anderson's cassette
could only handle so many revolutions
i can't recall where he hid booze
or when he abandoned hair gel
when his eldest forgave abandonment
and asked for a loan on a condo in miami
i must have been up all night
with a chocolate milk tummy
crying loud enough to be heard
lets say i vomited on the carpet near his side of bed
i slept in the middle
between the margins of a blanched polaroid
waiting for parenthood and looking for cluesslowly
false spring
fur feast
first you ate fur
then barley, then wool
spitting out all sorts
of fluff
we took you to the doctor
and all they could proctor
was who was calling your bluff?
constellation (let me live here, too)
the dreaminess of being
the woman by the sea
archetype complete
with long cotton night
gown, with curls piled
on head, with cunt
to signify woman
what happens when we
have more than that
archetype burst through
and expanded, a mash-up
we look the part and feel
beyond it while also of it
the exhaustion of the
multitudinous dance
what if the answer is just
that each is an outfit, a face
to a prism, one not eradicating
the other, slender homes,
temporal interpretations,
yes a code, yes a lineage
and yet how many seaside
women had cocks, too,
were hermaphroditic
were also men, were
hungry in all sorts of ways
woman a heartbeat
and starting point
not the only
star dance
corporeal reformation
corporeal forest station
arboreal consciousness
aurora borealis gender
of stars
POEMS I DIDN’T WRITE 2024
LITTLE WHISPER
GOOD INFORMATION
RUSTIC SHE SHED ON BUY NOTHING
THE PASSION OF JOAN ARC HANGOVER
CHAOTIC PRAYER FOR DAVE (2)
TRYING TO REMEMBER BLEEDING (2)
DRIVING OLIVIA HOME/AURORA/WOLF PUP POEM
COMMITMENT
GOLDEN SWEETIE
WHY WE DID WHAT WE DID WORKSHOP
MANIFESTING COMPLIMENTS
RED MOTHER
LASHLESS
ON ONE
LIVING
when time is light
folding in half
the tub has flaked
salt not hot enough
i do a lot, i’ve done
taste like a thought
2 characters share
against imaginary
dusk
Ugly Haikus
#28
Wrecked, rusting car husk
Irritated dog on chain
Wall to wall carpet
They say a picture
Says 1000 words. 4 are:
Faded off the beans
Stupid depression
Thinks I won’t take us both out
With this percocet
Mood compounded of
lassitude, submission, guilt
emptiness, despair
Lament the folly
Of longing for that which is
Unobtainable
Passive aggression:
pantomime fellatio
while rolling your eyes
REDEMPTION VIADUCT
on the road between
the living and the dead
the smoke makes me sneeze
baby in the hospital with the beer guzzling smile,
chorus line of Ebay tab worry dolls
world between worlds, is now when we ask
the dolls what to do?
they are hungry.
retrace initiation, imitate handwriting,
drop your voice when you come
to the clearing, dissolve the rodent
behind your smile.
beauty-body fights for balance,
unkempt in her garden.
women make spaghetti
somewhere quiet.
what song to play in the mildew cave
and what to sweep away?
THE HOUR IS LATE
lure of the law
law of the lure
wake up sideways
to wet ground, wild roses
jumbo palace burned down
olivia knows about the bad cigarette
consent to venture
stop for huckleberries
some things are god’s business
but we’re also
a little bit psychic
Look Me Up
The small tinny soundscape
of daily life
replacing the boomboxes
and bell-ringers
of my urban imaginary,
whispering “find me, find me,
defraud me if you must
but find me” keep my number
always just the same in case,
in case, someone always wondered
where I went.
To here, to here, I went where
I never left, where loudness
is a virtue mislabeled as a vice,
Where I might still
find a hammer, I might yet
ring a bell.