I try not to stare at them
These two women
As they move about
Stripped down
Dripping onto towels laid out
Rubbing balms and lotions onto
Skin less taut than mine.
I want to look
Not to judge, but to study their ways
These women
Forty something
Pulling on comfort clothes
And crocs and boots
Packing up gym bags that hold no obligation
or compensation
Only gratitude for limbs
One blows her hair halfway dry
Not so much to style it
But rather to avoid catching a january cold
I trade quick light smiles
With each of them
These women
I wonder what they think of me
I feel young and naive and envy their ease
I note the whispers of gray hair
Unmanaged and unmarred
They take care of themselves
These women
For no one but themselves
Im doing the same motions
Standing exposed and body buttered
Not with confidence but with defeat
I spread and stretch and choose the shower with no door
Modesty is an energy i can no longer muster
Maybe one day i can be one of them
These women
Who call their body a home
Not a curse
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