how you obsessed
you had AIDS
months after
testing negative
in college
reading articles
night after night
instead of studying
how years before that
you were certain
you were pregnant,
felt a pulse in your
belly while bleeding
month after month
and you thought
you ruined your body
with the tattoo got
from the dove
on his cup, stayed
up late in the night
panicked at the action
researching how to
remove it
all of the parasites
real and imagined
all of the rituals,
and now this
you wonder if
they were all part
of a way to manage
this or this is a continuum
of that or both
both/and
both/and
both/and
the feeling one is bad
the attempt to make sense
the clutch of fear
to circle around
something to hold you
in the vortex
Tuesday, January 30, 2024
fear cradle
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