practice reality

 a line in the sand
washed away again
what's the sensation
of it not bothering you yet
but soon?
at what minute in the morning
are you capable of using 
a neutral or loving or gentle tone
to make a request 
and be good natured 
about the plain inequity
of this phase of life
which seems will last forever
ok i know it's tense
when I'm forever saying yes
inevitably sometimes against my will
then irate at one more random question
my brain cracked
my wires frazzled 
the gap between what I wanted to be
and the reality
a gondola ride apart