Another Timeline, Reprise

Now at the end,
I went back --
Started reading '19
You said then 
You were trying harder
To try harder
And I wonder 
What that feels like now
After all of this
Overness.

I wrote about 
Other timelines
Geographies of loss
And I wonder
Where we'd be
If we stuck around
First loves
Like so many
Grandmothers
"He'll make a widow out of you"
And he did.

Well it takes two
To pull the wagon
What I do best
Is follow
Would I be 
In Seattle now
A doctor's wife
Planning for tsunami
Would I know you
Trying harder
To try harder
Over and over and over?