Butter Melt

Hummingbird feathers split the light

Ruby throat man hovers just in sight

Frosted rosemary shines in the sun

Moment is clean and then it’s done

Shadow suddenly on my face

Cold pumps my heart at survival pace

Winter’s clearer without you this year

Can’t share beauty with someone who’s not here

We drew up plans for the low tide

Now it’s your absence you’ve justified

Parsley died when the temperatures dropped

Green turned grey before I could chop

Mint soldiers on, it can’t stay it can’t go

Run my mouth over text, “please just let me know”

Your silence brings rage, I growl and spit

My words hang unfurled lip blood bit

Your time’s not mine, you took it away

Wish I could stop asking you to stay 

I can offer you glory, sweet and stacked

You can offer me nothing I’ve ever lacked

Last spring we slept on the sand in the wind

My desperation arranging you pinned

You took my photo with the foam on the shore

I hoped a mean muse was a muse once more

“Is it too hard to take care of me?”

“I promise no, it could never be”

But you chose to go the summer alone

It can’t have been harder than staying

I wish I could leave you, quiet and dark

Break up with us yank us all the way apart

The grief burns smooth

In my sad underbelly

I don’t yearn for you, baby, anymore

Except for when I do and I do sometimes

Except for when I do and I do sometimes